Have you ever suffered from a true migraine? If you had, you would know how debilitating they are. Now there are different levels of migraine headaches, you can have mild migraines and not even know it’s a migraine. For the more common one’s though. You get sick at your stomach, light sensitive and just can’t function (I also get sound sensitive as well). Normally you end up in bed anywhere from an hour to (like me) nearly an entire day. Sometimes my migraines last up to three days. My world feels like it’s ending and I get so depressed I wonder to myself, WHY? Why do I have to go through this issue. Lately I have had more and more severe migraines even after getting botox injections (32 shots in my head) every three months for the last year and half. You have no idea how hard it is to stay upbeat and positive when you feel like your dying, or at the least you feel like you head is going to explode.
I’ve stopped getting Botox, I’m not sure how long I have been getting shots, but 32 shots in one sitting then 3 months later repeat.. Well, the first couple rounds (3 month sections) my headaches were reduced from 17-18 migraines a month, and daily mild to severe headaches, to now having 8-10 migraines and low to mild daily headaches a month (yes I am talking about migraines that are, light and sound sensitive, knock down, drag out, leave you lying on a bed screaming at every little mouse squeak, in the dark, eye mask and ear plugs in). So, anyway, it’s been about a week since I was supposed to get my shots again, no daily medication (thanks Medicaid for denying my meds) I’m taking probably 2 Excedrin a day as well as rescue meds (Thanks again Medicaid for only allowing me 9 per month) for the migraines (NOT ENOUGH), they work great but as you can well read, I run out mid-month. I’m doing ok but the daily headaches are starting to get strong and I’m losing my “Upbeat attitude”. Today has been a bad one, I have been very depressed because I don’t understand “Why me”.
The good news is that I have a new Doctor that is an Osteo— something or other that is doing some new things and talking with my Neurologist about new things too. I’m hopeful that he will help me with all of my pains. (back pain – between shoulders and lower back as well as neck – my guess is those car accidents and childhood accidents I had are paying me back now. Anyway.
I am hopeful for a better tomorrow, very soon.